hey guys and girls its been along time since Ive posted but i know that the only person that will see this or i hope that Will see this is Kodii and tbh i love you so much i don't think i keep going with out you I'm on my third night with no sleep and its worse for me than you were because well everything is I WILL PROVE TO YOU I HAVE CHANGED 3 weeks with no cannabis 5 weeks without coke and well I'm drinking beer now ewww :S but i just thought id like to say
if i kiss you. will you lips tell this truth
Darling how i miss you
strawberries taste like lips do
and its no complete yet
mustn't get our feet wet, cause that leads to regret, diving in too soon
but ill owe it all to you, my little Darling Kodii
i hope you can forgive me for all the bad thins Ive did to you and how i treated you and I'm not promising anything because i know what they mean to you, nothing. so I'm not promising it I'm swearing down on Tom's ash's (childhood best friend who past away R.I.P)
i know i shouldn't ask for this and its just me being selfish and i should try to move on but i have and well its killing me more and more everyday :/ i know you've moved on and im Happy your happy and living your life how you wanted but i would just like to say you will never be alone or feel unloved because i will always love you and i hope you can always remember that if you ever need a friend or someone just to talk to i have been and always will be here for you x
OH BTW Ive still not given up fighting for you and I'm determined to at least have you as a friend please just understand that without you I'm falling apart
i love you and i always will :) i just hope you understand that xxxx
Friday 25 November 2011
Monday 4 October 2010
Skeii Just Got Hacked!
Hulloo, this is Kodii..
I just wanted to let Skei know some stuff, in a not annying you constantly sort of way... (Although I admit I can't shut up Facebook messaging him... :/)
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First. I do really really love you. The thought of you not loving me anymore kills me inside, more than anything! I hope you decide you do love me, I dont know what I'd do with out you! I live for you, and regret everything I've done to you!
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Second.
I'm doing about 5 different things to try and prove to you I'm not lying, I do love you, I don't want to let you go! I wont give you up with out a fight! And my promise I made, I'm going to keep. (I promise not to hurt you ever again!!!! I really do!)
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Third. I LOVE YOU DONT LEAVE ME!
I'll do anything to keep you!
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Tun sie lieben mich?
Weil Ich liebe dich!!
I'm scared to kiss you tomorrow, incase you don't feel anything. I want to erase what I did, but I know I cant, and I deserve to be treated like shit, but I couldn't take losing you. I really love you so much, I will keep trying to make it up to you, make you trust me again.
And I'm sorry you wasted time on that album for me, seeing as you wont give it to me now.
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Maybe someday you will? When you trust me.
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Um, I think thats all I have to say.
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I love you.
I'm in love with you.
Always have been.
(p.s. sorry for hacking you!)
xxxx
Sunday 15 August 2010
The Day After... The Night... Before!
O.o Its so Schmall!!(the picture -->)
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Ow :( I have a headachee and a MAHUSIVEE hangover x.x
Hey guys. And girls?
Sorry haven't posted in a while. Got banned from my laptop. Dont ask why, I have no idea myself XD Yeah this post will probably be quite long ("Ehh???" Kodi- She's gonna stay quiet now)
Sat here quietly coz of my headachee, I'm such a girl ;) Its not my fault though. I have the sexy hips too ;)
But yeah, This is like a HUMONGUS catch-up (or rambles)
Where to start??
No seriously. Where the fuck-? *thinks*
Oooh! The Gypsy Town (caravan site) I had fun (duh) met loads of people, and hopfully will keep in contact with them. Meeting up with them in October (Y)
But other than that... I haven't been up to much.
Played alot of football. Smoked alot of weed. Tried to over dose. On Coke(the white power) and Ketamine. Me and Kodii have issues right?
Drank alot of alcohol this weekend at a wedding.
All I remember is lots of beer... alco-pops... gello shots... and brightly coloured rainbow puke XD
lol
And lotsandlotsandlotsandlotsandlots of harribo. and Love hearts.
So now is my chance to relax XD
Lol. And like Kodii said. Detoxs.
I guess that means lots of water?
Ewww x.x
I hate waterrr x.x
Its just like you're mum!
She's minging.
Moving on.
Over all, I've got pissed, stoned, Social and unfortunatly...
Sober.
Maybe. Sometimes...
Got a free house next week!!
I'm gonna RAVE IT UP!! XD
Learnt 'Stairway to heaven' the other day.
I was bored.
Really.Really.Really.Bored.
Reallyreallyreallyreallyreally
Bored.
I HAD NO LIFE! But more of one than Kodii.
XD
Just been chilling round Kodii's again, for the last couple of days? I dunno, I loose track. And my alters (Joe, Scott and Charlie) dont wanna go home. They spent a week away from their precious other and are making up time.
Cant remember what else has happened (like you care anyway XP) so I'll go now.
I wish you guys all sweet dreams...
Of me anyway ;)
leavin' ya but I love ya!
xx
Sunday 4 July 2010
alone for 2 weeks [7th rant]
heya guys im sorry i havent posted in a while i was banned from the laptop because of cyber bullying on facebook so my dad wanted to take it to the police.
but they still didnt do anything even tho there was evidence that they wanted to stab and hurt me but now its just getting worse because Kodii is leaveing for ipswich for two weeks and im bored and loney with onoy her top and her favouit perfume.
i went to tumbridge wells today with tyler and liam some close freinds o mine to go do some parkour (free running\running and clear obsticals on roofs ect ect)
but other than tht ive been bored and loney and i dont know how long i can take it so yeah ive been upset agitated and more and tbh doing more reckless things because it gives me a boost like Kodii does when i see her
i love her sooo much my words anrt even the tip of the ice berge they are like a ice cube the size ofmy nail compared to how i feel about soo im sorry lady's but this guys taken and well never going to be free again because i just care for Koddi too much and would never let anything hurt her
it would have to go through me first.
right now im talking to her on msn but it doesnt give the same effect but its better than nothingg XD but i miss her and tbh ive been smoking more.
when i got home the day she left my nanturned around and asked me how Koddi was then i broke down in tears and left because i knew she was teasing me ive alays been the black sheep the dissapointment and now they are useing this weakness agaist me :/
wheni look up at the sky i see her face and it just makes me worse, but moving on from me being depressed lol
so yeah er i dont know what else to say reli not much has happened resently so yeah talk soon
love ya
but gotta leave ya
xxxx
but they still didnt do anything even tho there was evidence that they wanted to stab and hurt me but now its just getting worse because Kodii is leaveing for ipswich for two weeks and im bored and loney with onoy her top and her favouit perfume.
i went to tumbridge wells today with tyler and liam some close freinds o mine to go do some parkour (free running\running and clear obsticals on roofs ect ect)
but other than tht ive been bored and loney and i dont know how long i can take it so yeah ive been upset agitated and more and tbh doing more reckless things because it gives me a boost like Kodii does when i see her
i love her sooo much my words anrt even the tip of the ice berge they are like a ice cube the size ofmy nail compared to how i feel about soo im sorry lady's but this guys taken and well never going to be free again because i just care for Koddi too much and would never let anything hurt her
it would have to go through me first.
right now im talking to her on msn but it doesnt give the same effect but its better than nothingg XD but i miss her and tbh ive been smoking more.
when i got home the day she left my nanturned around and asked me how Koddi was then i broke down in tears and left because i knew she was teasing me ive alays been the black sheep the dissapointment and now they are useing this weakness agaist me :/
wheni look up at the sky i see her face and it just makes me worse, but moving on from me being depressed lol
so yeah er i dont know what else to say reli not much has happened resently so yeah talk soon
love ya
but gotta leave ya
xxxx
Wednesday 9 June 2010
imattrue little games...[6th rant]
heya guys
those that read this anyway
i only have one thing to say today and that is about some little imature people i know bitching baout me to their mates that now want to stab me XD
this all started when i had a massive go at my ex girlfriend... key word of MY yes its my problem that i wanted to sort out but no all her little friends joined in hahaa but the best thing is she isnt the problem no she is the cause the problem is her little mate lucy.
Because lucy got involed i had a go at her because she was so perfetic and petie i recon she needs to grow up and act her age instead of bitching about me behind my back to all her emo friends
The best thing is. is that now they want to stab me and smash my face in when its got nothing to do with them yes they are friend but its not their problem and threating to stab me and kick me in just makes them even more immature but the funny thing is they dont know who they are mesing with.
if they want a fight ill give them one and i wont do what they tell me to or what they want to do because they want me alone against about i say 15 to 20 of them and they are probally what 18.I dont want to fight them but if they lay one finger on Kodii or any of my friends i will be there for them because having ago at them thats ok if they have a reason but if they want to hurt us physically thats when they push it too far and thats when people get hurt and it wont be me.if they want a fight let them have it but im staying out of it i dont want to waste my energy on those who have no reason to be hurting the one's i love and like but if they do thats it they are dead(not acutally)
i love my friends and more of course Kodii but if they want to hurt someone let it be me or let them try.
oh by the way im not trying to make myself sound hard and stuff but really ive been there on both side's and the guy with the reason always wins.
so let these guys try their only making themselfs as bad as what i am apprently to them, apprently im the reason lucy is going to cousiling whiuch i know for a fact im not ive done nothing to her, ive been there when she needed me when something bad happened and she wanted me i was there, but now she's changed and now wants me dead, in my option thats abit petie dont you think dont worry if you think not i dont mind because everyone is intitled to their option but threating someone is too mcuh and their suposed to be 16+ but oh well ill live
other than that ive had a good day hanging out with my best friend capelin just playing xbox and also looking on facebook but yeah not much left to say about those twats and iim sorry if ive offended anyone that reads this
ok im fed up of wasting my breath on them so im off xxXD
i love you all
i love Kodii even more tho
speak somemore soon
now fuck off
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
bye
those that read this anyway
i only have one thing to say today and that is about some little imature people i know bitching baout me to their mates that now want to stab me XD
this all started when i had a massive go at my ex girlfriend... key word of MY yes its my problem that i wanted to sort out but no all her little friends joined in hahaa but the best thing is she isnt the problem no she is the cause the problem is her little mate lucy.
Because lucy got involed i had a go at her because she was so perfetic and petie i recon she needs to grow up and act her age instead of bitching about me behind my back to all her emo friends
The best thing is. is that now they want to stab me and smash my face in when its got nothing to do with them yes they are friend but its not their problem and threating to stab me and kick me in just makes them even more immature but the funny thing is they dont know who they are mesing with.
if they want a fight ill give them one and i wont do what they tell me to or what they want to do because they want me alone against about i say 15 to 20 of them and they are probally what 18.I dont want to fight them but if they lay one finger on Kodii or any of my friends i will be there for them because having ago at them thats ok if they have a reason but if they want to hurt us physically thats when they push it too far and thats when people get hurt and it wont be me.if they want a fight let them have it but im staying out of it i dont want to waste my energy on those who have no reason to be hurting the one's i love and like but if they do thats it they are dead(not acutally)
i love my friends and more of course Kodii but if they want to hurt someone let it be me or let them try.
oh by the way im not trying to make myself sound hard and stuff but really ive been there on both side's and the guy with the reason always wins.
so let these guys try their only making themselfs as bad as what i am apprently to them, apprently im the reason lucy is going to cousiling whiuch i know for a fact im not ive done nothing to her, ive been there when she needed me when something bad happened and she wanted me i was there, but now she's changed and now wants me dead, in my option thats abit petie dont you think dont worry if you think not i dont mind because everyone is intitled to their option but threating someone is too mcuh and their suposed to be 16+ but oh well ill live
other than that ive had a good day hanging out with my best friend capelin just playing xbox and also looking on facebook but yeah not much left to say about those twats and iim sorry if ive offended anyone that reads this
ok im fed up of wasting my breath on them so im off xxXD
i love you all
i love Kodii even more tho
speak somemore soon
now fuck off
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
bye
Tuesday 8 June 2010
WoopWoop random day XD...[5th rant]
heya guy
well those who acutally read this random blog of mine XD
so yeah this is a random post about my shitty school
but the good thing is weve only got 28 school days left of year 10 XD
but there is some dick heads in my school such as my slutty fugly ex girlfreind that is an acutal bitch and one of her mate i like to know her as the chin.
yeah chin has been saying shit about me to all her emo freinds that ive never even met and they all want to kick my head in.hahahahaha just a little faggot reli not being homefobic and all consisting im bisexual but i shant be talking about that today maybe some other day XD.
but any way where was i ...... oh yeah ii remember now.
i say let them fucking try there may be more of them but i doute they can look after themselfs because they are only attention seekers that apprently chased me and Kodii out of brighton WHAT A FUCKING LIE i never even saw them hahaha they just lie about everything and try to sound hard well ill take them me and my mates and them and theirs.
who would you think would win a binch of emo kids with big hair or death metal heads.
in my option i recon death metal heads, not trying to make myself sound hard but i have been a alot of fights and nearly always won so yeah and today i had my head smashed in a door by a mate,
hahaha it was great he hurt his head because it hit him after meXD and i just loled at it hahaha funny day but yeah i plan to smash some emo's in the face IF and only IF they really want to start XD
but yeah only 28 days left of year ten XD great and my head teacher loves me again i dont know why, but i hate my head of year because she said if we dont do our homework on time we will have a lunch time detention -.-
but oh well i better start doing it more lol.
ive been playing acoutic guitar more often trying to write Kodii a new song XD
but now i cant think about what else to say so yeah i think im done now
i love you Kodii XXXXXXXXXXXXXXX XD
ok guys ill post tomoz mayby
love ya all
thanks for reading
xxx
well those who acutally read this random blog of mine XD
so yeah this is a random post about my shitty school
but the good thing is weve only got 28 school days left of year 10 XD
but there is some dick heads in my school such as my slutty fugly ex girlfreind that is an acutal bitch and one of her mate i like to know her as the chin.
yeah chin has been saying shit about me to all her emo freinds that ive never even met and they all want to kick my head in.hahahahaha just a little faggot reli not being homefobic and all consisting im bisexual but i shant be talking about that today maybe some other day XD.
but any way where was i ...... oh yeah ii remember now.
i say let them fucking try there may be more of them but i doute they can look after themselfs because they are only attention seekers that apprently chased me and Kodii out of brighton WHAT A FUCKING LIE i never even saw them hahaha they just lie about everything and try to sound hard well ill take them me and my mates and them and theirs.
who would you think would win a binch of emo kids with big hair or death metal heads.
in my option i recon death metal heads, not trying to make myself sound hard but i have been a alot of fights and nearly always won so yeah and today i had my head smashed in a door by a mate,
hahaha it was great he hurt his head because it hit him after meXD and i just loled at it hahaha funny day but yeah i plan to smash some emo's in the face IF and only IF they really want to start XD
but yeah only 28 days left of year ten XD great and my head teacher loves me again i dont know why, but i hate my head of year because she said if we dont do our homework on time we will have a lunch time detention -.-
but oh well i better start doing it more lol.
ive been playing acoutic guitar more often trying to write Kodii a new song XD
but now i cant think about what else to say so yeah i think im done now
i love you Kodii XXXXXXXXXXXXXXX XD
ok guys ill post tomoz mayby
love ya all
thanks for reading
xxx
Monday 7 June 2010
for my Kodii ...i love your eyes {fourth rant/pome]
for my Kodii i know it wont be as good as i want it too but ill try as hard for you so you can feel what i feel for you your my pretty angel girl XD i lobe you i really do
For my kodii
i love your eyes
even through my lies
they make me fly in the sky's
i hope my tears
they flow my fears
but show my love
from above
i know i put you in pain
that fact drives me insane
i owe you my life
so we can fly
into the sky's
no matter what i say
no matter what i pay
im just happy your willing to stay
i see those eyes
make me fly in the sky
your my key
to set my heart free
your soft red hair
i will take care
forever and always
in so many different ways
never giveing up it pays
i will never leave you
everything you do
just make me love you more
you just melt my core
even though im sore
i just love you even more
youve helped me
because you are my golden key
your my angel
fly down from the sky's
and look into my eye's
it just only make me cry's
your my love
your my life
your my peter pan
i hope you can grab my hips
and fly away
i love you soo much Kodii and i hope you enjoy i fail blog pome XD
i love you more than any words can say
your than my actions can say nothing can compair
to how i really feel i love you soooooooo much i cant say any more just that to death do me part XD and of course my singing and mumbleing when im asleep 'i love you'xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx i hope anyone that reads this enjoys and i hope you understand
love you all
love you Kodii more XD
see ya soon
For my kodii
i love your eyes
even through my lies
they make me fly in the sky's
i hope my tears
they flow my fears
but show my love
from above
i know i put you in pain
that fact drives me insane
i owe you my life
so we can fly
into the sky's
no matter what i say
no matter what i pay
im just happy your willing to stay
i see those eyes
make me fly in the sky
your my key
to set my heart free
your soft red hair
i will take care
forever and always
in so many different ways
never giveing up it pays
i will never leave you
everything you do
just make me love you more
you just melt my core
even though im sore
i just love you even more
youve helped me
because you are my golden key
your my angel
fly down from the sky's
and look into my eye's
it just only make me cry's
your my love
your my life
your my peter pan
i hope you can grab my hips
and fly away
i love you soo much Kodii and i hope you enjoy i fail blog pome XD
i love you more than any words can say
your than my actions can say nothing can compair
to how i really feel i love you soooooooo much i cant say any more just that to death do me part XD and of course my singing and mumbleing when im asleep 'i love you'xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx i hope anyone that reads this enjoys and i hope you understand
love you all
love you Kodii more XD
see ya soon
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